September 27, 2010

Raging at the Universe

Posted in Uncategorized tagged , , , at 9:46 pm by silversnowdragon

I know I am not the only one out there looking for a job, and I’m not the only one utterly frustrated with the process. I just wanted to get that out there at the start.

But I am particularly disappointed tonight.

I interviewed for a position with a pharma company outside of Boston. Great position, great company. I thought the interview went really well and I was really excited about the chance to take on this new role.

But no such luck. I got an email late this evening from the recruiter letting me know that they’d already settled on two final candidates, and I was not one of them.

The problem with getting excited about a role is that it raises the chance you will be really disappointed if it doesn’t work out. That’s where I am right now. This rejection hurt. First I just felt sad and then the frustration bubbled until I was ready to rage at the universe and shout “Why not? What’s wrong with me?”

Yea, yea, that’s negative thinking. I know it isn’t “me” per se – it is whether I am a match for the job. But I know me, and I know what a good job I can do. I just need a company to give me a chance.

They won’t regret it.